| the icky coat |

its been a rough past week or two...on the outside, things are normal but the activities inside my head/body are draining me. its weird because nothing's really different. maybe a few less hours of sleep, a lil more stress from exams...but i still have my routine. i go to work, school, gym, play bball, eat, study...all the sort, but its like i have this layer of ick on me that i just can't shake. it kinda drags me down and i try my best to just keep chuggin along (because i wanna stay positive and not let the hard times get me down), but the harder i try and the longer i go, the heavier it gets. i get into this funk sometimes and i really can't explain it. the only i can do is clean (my way of dealing with my funk), try to change my way of thinking (altho hard at times) and really...just wait it out. its funny how sometimes you dont have full control over the way you feel. sure, you can tweak your days/activites, change your attitude, but sometimes, you just feel what you feel. *sigh* life is crazy sometimes. alas...i ask you, dear funk, to not stay too long because there is life to be lived (: i shall surround myself with wonderful people, engage in exhilarating activities and laugh you away ;)