| leave it up to life... |

you would think that with so many things running through my head, i would have more to say. i think and i think and i think and my mouth opens...but nothing comes out. they say silence speaks louder than words. well then, what if i just type them...
if life were a movie, then sometimes i feel as though i am playing a part...a role that was not written for me | i have a strange habit of asking people questions, but not really listening to their answer | there are times when life is just this overwhelming ball of negative energy and i find myself just sitting and staring off into space and there is nothing i can do but cry | my first thoughts when i dislocated my finger were "ouch, my finger feels funny" followed immediately by "oh no...i cant climb" | i wish i had more control over how i felt towards certain things | if life were a jigsaw puzzle, i think some of my pieces got mixed up in another puzzle box | i dont like running | i hate how things are easier said than done | no, i dont know when i am going back to school. please stop asking me | i finally got a waterpik | why is it when you try to simplify things in life, it just gets more complicated? | what do you do when you have no motivation, but a promise must be kept? | why is it that sometimes you know you are making the wrong decisions, but you still make them? | my stomach is very picky and does not settle well with certain foods | i used to take so many pictures...of anything and everything. nowadays, i hardly pick up my camera. what's different? | i like to turn everything into some sort of physical activity/challenge | i finally got my new BOREAL CRUX rock climbing shoes- they hurt like a mother | i love my basketball team (: VC love | the older you get, the faster time seems to fly by | i have not shaved my legs since september | why am i not a risk taker? what am i afraid of? | one of the best feelings in the world is being in love | music has extraordinary powers | i am in need of a good haircut | i could be in a room surrounded by many wonderful people, yet i still feel so alone | when does life begin? | when do the thoughts end?