| thoughts-a-fleeting |

so, i have had quite a bit of concern expressed by ppl after my last blog (not the shopping cart one) e.g. stu: *grabs my head with both hands* "you need some excitement in your life!" i assure you all that i am not depressed (i knew i should have put a disclaimer on that entry, haha) i am just...in a funk (: i guess thats the best way to describe it. we all have those days. i know this. and my entry-- merely fleeting thoughts. thoughts that should perhaps remain so, but i chose to write them down. why?...because they were real. they were true and real to me in that moment and i needed to just put it out there. why? *shrug* im not sure...i think its good to feel out whats going on in your head. no pretending, no suppressing, just raw thoughts. no sugar-coating, no beating around the bush. it helps me know myself better and the reality of life, in all its ups and downs...but thanks for the concern. its good to know ppl care (: and are always willing to offer advice:

Swan:i think you should play with donut for an hour. that'll cheer you up for sure!
Me: i dont really like playing with donut.
Swan: oh...*pout*

Stu: you just need to find something that you love
Me: i love climbing...
Stu: no, something that will love you back!
Me: ohhh...riiiiight

(: i am still a lover of life and its rollercoaster ride. i guess you can say, im at a big drop. it's fast, scary, crazy... but at the same time it gives me an incredible rush, an indescribable feeling in my stomach that makes me scream but keeps me feeling alive.